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Monday, 27 April 2009

Diet Blog 5

I have definetly been not doing well on my diet hahaha. This is not good. I stopped running last week cause I had to study but this week Im gonna catch up Im definetly still out of shape. Im gonna get rid of ice cream and soda for a month and see if I can get rid of this extra skin fat.

Jeff

Tuesday, 21 April 2009

Sin Blog 1

I think I sin a lot and thats bad. I think most Christians take there sin for granted because well Jesus died for our sins so he wiped clean our slate. We forget the magnitude of sin, and how it really does keep us away from God. So, we often proceed with our lives in a cycle of sin and forgiveness. (By the way, Thanks Jesus for your eternal grace). And I know people think of a sin as something if you do you will get punished and I'm very guilty of that perspective too. Because its true hahahaha. However, I think I need to realize that sin in my life keeps me away from God. So, I know I am saved by Jesus so it technically doesn't matter how much I sin because Jesus grace is never ending, but I need to strive to have a less sinful life because it keeps me away from God. Meaning when I sin I often don't want to pray, or go before God, or commune with others, or read my Bible etc. So, basically I want to sin less to become closer to God( sounds blasphemous). And basically I want to keep track of how much I sin or at least be aware of the sin of my life. And how else would I keep track of my sin but with a legalistic sin blog hahaha. So, everyday I just want to see and reflect on the sins in my life and what I need to work on to be more like Jesus and to be closer to God/Jesus. This will be a very honest blog and besides my little ( hahaha) will be very serious. Meaning it will reveal all my sins, even those ones people don't like saying outloud namingly lust.

Reasons:
1. I think being aware of my sin in my life shows what are the areas I'm not giving to God
2. Hopefully this will help me build a stronger relationship with Christ my Savior
3. Why I'm blogging because I think it will keep me more accountable to my sins especially if you know me.
Diet blog 3-4

I'm starting to realize its hard to work out when I have to study so much. So last week I didn't really maintain my running schedule, bad bad. And actually Ice cream was on sale so i bought a lot of it, and its gone , also bad bad. But I don't think I gained much weight because I've been to lazy too cook or go out and eat, also bad bad.

Resolution: I gotta go running and no more ice cream. I want to keep away from the sweets, and soda for a month and see if i can pull it off,

Thursday, 09 April 2009

My diet blog 2.5

I forgot to write my stats:

Slurp test: loud
Crunches: same 15
push-ups: same 20
Running: 3 miles Increase
Carb: A lot hahaha
Protein: a lot
Vegetables: More than 0 hhahaha progress hahaha

Im gonna try and take one of my carb meals with a salad ewwwwww hahaha but ill try

Monday, 06 April 2009

My Friendships

So my housemates and I were talking about friendship a little yesterday. And I have to ask what makes a true friend. I've started to look back at all my so called friendships I've made these last few years and I realize what a superficial relationship I have with most of these people. I think over the past year or so I've realized that friendship is definitely a two way street. If one person is just investing, and he keeps investing in all these people but that love is not reciprocated it not only becomes draining it down right becomes discouraging. I think I feel that in most of my friendships especially last year and even this year. I felt that I tried pretty hard to get close to the people around me, and I made efforts to hang out, check up, encourage, joke around but I just ended up burning myself out. I remember thinking one day, why am I putting so much effort to people who don't even care if I'm there or not. If they don't give a crap why should I give a crap about them. Of course thats the wrong attitude, and I'm a Christian, so I'm definitely called to love with a selfless attitude but its hard especially if your trying to build friendships with people who don't really care for you or at least they don't really show it. I'm not being a girl or anything I hope hahaha but I need to feel the love once in a while. And I realize that these sort of one way friendships don't work for me. I HATE THEM and IM TIRED OF THEM. And like I said before true friendship is a two way street, a mutual show of concern and care for one another. So looking back at all my so called friendships over the last years I think I've only made a handful of friends who actually show real concern for me. Who ask me how I'm doing, Who want to hang out with me, who are there for me when I'm down or when I'm happy. And its not like I'm disregarding all the people I've met before who i deemed as friends I'm just gonna call them for who they are: good acquaintances. They are not my friends and thats not negative thats just being truthful.